the moment my eyes flashed across the last word,
i just felt like wow.
God is really God. u know.
He doesnt have OUR worldly mindset.
we're always being so envious of how well others can perform.
gloating over our own strengths and power.
yet beneath that prideful facade,
we hide another layer of shame and sense of inferiority.
i mean really, God i mean wow.
i just cant stop thinking wow :)
He really has His wonders and performs it to His plans.
While we worldly fools dwell on the strengths
God thinks and plans for weaknesses.
i mean duh. He really is different from us.
all right, that's why He's God :p

think after i've come to accept the Lord Jesus Christ,
i feel that i did open up quite abit about my weaknesses
which i feel, i really feel is,
the lack of love for people :(
and also patience.
so now im going through training to mould myself into a more loving and patient character on this Earth.
and soon, with my shaped character i'll reunite with Him, my Holy Father :p

with the kids, and my granny...
tell me which part isnt about patience and love :)
i just feel that now my temper with my granny is pretty controlled!
As much as Satan tries to tempt me at the doorstep of my mind,
u know our Lord, JEsus Christ is always above the devil
and when we send Him to fend for us,
because He so loves us
He will protect us from all evil! :)

yups.
we all have our weaknesses, but they are meant to be turned into strengths.
and through God, nothing is impossible.
even if our little never-wiser-than-God's mind tells us nonono, we're never going to make it,
well, just wait and see how God performs His miracles in you!

i can feel Him in my life. mich's and qian's life.
so there. He's always working
but He never gets tired! :p
cos He's our Father!! (:

honest reflections. *
7:26 PM

34 - Thinking Like a Servant.

"Attitudes count more than achievements."
how true. even if we seemingly did not achieve anything, it doesnt mean we're not good enough or worthless.
because achievements is yet another worldly term.
but with attitude, i feel that so long we are answerable to the Lord and ourselves,
we're pretty safe.

realised that for now, my attitude to how im handling my life is
doing my best in all the opportunities that come along my way,
my interview and writing test for SCI, physio @ sydney,
and United ARtist Network (UAN),
and have faith and trust in God that in whatever He gives me,
He has the best for me in His almighty mind and plans. :)
i really trust You that You'll give me nothing less than the best!
really :)

and with such a thinking,
that you really do ur best and leave the rest to God,
u'll think that life is so much less-burdened and more enlightening.
pun intended :)
it literally lightens the stress you're carrying on your back.
i mean seriously,
we're so scared of making decisions and when these decisions do go wrong
we're so inclined to shoulder responsibility for these bad decisions
not that we shouldnt care a bit even,
but really, putting your trust that Lord gives you the best
it provides a new way of living.
be convinced that even the situation may not see the least bit rosy at the moment
it will be soon :)
even if it's not in this life,
just remember He's promised us eternal riches when we reunite with Him
falling into His arms, with deafening joyful laughter.
:) --smiles--

Think im quite guilty of using Him sometimes :(
i try my very best to put myself out of that mind
that God will give me things on condition.
i mean really, sometimes He says yes, sometimes no, and most of the time, wait.
so, there.
i like to make pacts with Him.
and think about it, im really in no position to do tt...
hmm.. haiz.
ill try to change...must trust You! :)

im reminded by this chapter that once again,
Christians are one family
one army
one team
and we have a common enemy
and we MUST fight this warfare (i dont mean literally the connotation of violence.)
and uphold His name.
MUST!!

my aunt used to tell me
her faith or whatever is the true route. where all 5 religions come together
that all other religions are merely ji4 tuo1..
but i reallly feel that Jesus Christ gave me jie3 tuo1...
i mean really..
u'll see life in a very very different light
somehow, in His works of wonder,
you feel life's really fulfilling =)
love.

honest reflections. *
8:11 AM

33 - How Real Servants Act.

I would admit it’s funny at first to think of myself as a servant.
But coming to know that Jesus, who actually is the Son of God, actually did humble Himself to clean His disciples’ feet is an inspiration. Or however I should call it.
I mean besides the fact that Christ did it with one of the purposes being that the following generations’ disciples may follow, I don’t know how I can ever be like Christ..
So perfect!

Or maybe we’ve been attached to this worldly world for too long
That we cannot see and realise that in truth, servant and minister mean the same anyway.
Afterall, we’re all children of God, ain’t we?
The thing about man is that we love differences, but then we can’t celebrate that.
Or rather, very rarely can we.
Or maybe I should say we love distinction.
In our world, there’s a difference between a master and servant, leader and follower.
But I realise…ultimately, what’s going to matter is not what’s on this earth,
Where we’re sent down for a special assignment.

I mean seriously.
Personally, I think I will take a pretty long time to get accustomed to the idea of being a servant.
But I promise You, I’ll try! 
Just pray that the Holy Spirit will guide me along the way, perfect and mould and shape me into the perfect part for Christ’s body. (:

I love You! (:

honest reflections. *
8:10 AM