i fell asleep while reading this chapter. i just gave in to fatigue.
shrugs.
but when i woke up and read to the last bit,
i just felt like the tears flowed out.
one of the sentences that hit me hard was like..
the day we stand before God, He's going to hold us responsible for the unsaved around us.
because we are supposed to help lost sheep return to Him, our Father.
it probably sounds unfair and biting as it's normal we hate taking up responsibilities...
but i cant help but to feel the nagging of trying my best to save my loved ones -
Friends and Family.
i started out with much fervour but i was unaware that my zest is taking its toll.
so great, i mean through today's sermon,
today's FOF class, today's QT,
God's reminding me that no matter how people are goin to think of me,
just continue to spread His message of love, really.
but im really stuck in this valley where im really afraid that people will repel Him,
that people will think of Him in the bad light..
how is it i can bring my unbeliever friends closer to His salvation,
without jeopardising people's judgement on Him?
not that He is afraid of judgement just that i might, u know, feel unfair.
think the very best i can do is through my prayers.
pray dutifully.

Pray
Until
Something
Happens

PUSH.
God's really with me =)

honest reflections. *
6:20 AM