i've always thought that im an accident kid. i mean yeah, my parents definitely didn't plan for me.
in fact, my mum had me before she married my dad.
it is yeah, how i'd always thought as an accident. u know. no protection kinda accident.
and this chapter shared with me that im not an accident.
perhaps all that happened,
my mum's conjugation with my dad, the break off, everything's everything.
God has planned all of these. and foresaw that it'd shape me into who i am today.
just like how He wanted me to be.

it's a very simple chapter today...
and but excerpt from one poem kinda impressed upon me.

"No, that trauma you faced was not easy,
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into his likeness you'd grow."
- Russel l Kelfer

and really touched by what He said,
"I have carried you since you were born;
I have taken care of you from your birth.
Even when you're old, I will be the same.
Even when your hair has turned gray, I will take care of you.
I made you and i will take care of you."

i felt there's this sense of security.
because i know I'm not an accident and was a project way planned before time began,
i know im safe, im here to fulfil a purpose and im not alone in reaching out to this purpose.

Thank You, Lord, once again, for everything You've given me.
I just can't ask for more.
(:

do You have a computer up there? hee :p

honest reflections. *
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