u know something, God really is good. (:
on my way home, somehow i guess it's weariness,
irritation came to me. devil's work u call it.
started evaporating at an alarming speed.
came home got so impatient with my granny.
got quite sad about it. just wondering,
hey what's wrong with me
u know im trying to better myself each day
and sumtimes u just look at urself with disappointment.
quite discouraging i must sae.
or at least i was almost beaten.

yes.
until i read rick warrens.
this chapter came at the right time.
u know, sometimes u just read some books, the lines just speak to u.
(:

one of my biggest flaw in my life is
i dont really know how to love people.
sometimes we just take people around us, people we see everyday, for granted.
i can love people outside home, but when im home,
it's all back to square one.
i feel so lousy sometimes. sigh.
i wish i had no family to think about.
but if that really was the case, i would have hated life.
almost. u know?

life's so contradictory isn't it?
then came this line from the book:
"God trains us by giving us 'family responsibilities', and the foremost of these is to practise loving each other."

but this :
"You have to be around people - irritating, imperfect, frustrating people" is quite reassuring to what course ill be taking! physio! (:
and thru my job as a after-sch child care teacher, i hope i can interact with kids better.
they are SO cute (:

i think the challenge is in loving people graciously and unabashedly.
i can love u but im really pai seh about it.
just like i know i love my granny but i think it's so damn mushy to do all the stuff.
sighhh.

im praying that God will help me, and guide me with His love to help me learn to love!!

pleaseee.

honest reflections. *
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