felt like this chapter was talking to me again..haha
maybe it's an indication... (:

"Every human being was created by God, but not everyone is a child of God."
-reminded me of the conversation i had with xinying today, i was like asking about the different levels of difficulty to come to know God in different parts of the world. i duno how to explain how this links to the above-mentioned quote, but i just felt so lah.
- in a way, it deepened my understanding ...

then the later part of the chapter talked about baptism.
i've accepted Jesus Christ, accepted the fact that he suffered at the cross for us, to cleanse us of our sins..
i used to think im not ready for water baptism, or any baptism as a matter of fact,
then this line came:

"It is an act of initiation, not something you put off until you are spiritually mature. The only biblical condition is that you believe".

the only worry is that i wont get pass my aunt.
i dun wanna fall out with my physical family, though i know what matters most is my eternal family...
sigh. at a tug of war.
i believe i believe i believe. i really do.
but somehow, i still think im not ready for water baptism or any baptism.

i can't ask for direction from the Lord, because from this chapter,
He's clearly shown me that i should get baptised as soon as possible...
i guess deep down i still hope that i can get my physical family's blessings...
i dont even mind being thought of as a rebel.
ultimately, it's really my choice.
no matter how much opposition, i will still get baptised one day.
but i still wanna know more... know more about it before i do it.
(:

give me time okie (:

love.

honest reflections. *
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