firstly, i found qian and mich to be my partners haha. as encouraged by rick warren. (:

anyway i love the dedication page, where it says: "before you were born, God planned this moment in your life. It is no accident that you are holding this book."

shrugs...but life hasnt been that meaningful till now. you know, you start to see things in a very very much different light and this book brought me to find out about the reason behind my existence.

i was quite torn between medicine and physio. cos i had this weird feeling i might make it pass the first round and will have to go request for referral letters from my teachers and all.(i wasnt really ready to ask for the letters cus yes, i feel that i havent been a good-enough student to even ask for that much.) and physio's like a huge interest. u know like, sports physiotherapy and stuff. but the inner voice is calling out to go try medicine. kinda related to the line, "focusing on ourselves will never reveal our life's purpose." it was, i feel, a tug between interest and purpose. ya know.

i derived a conclusion that it's a lot about my own pride. im afraid to see how my teachers would react.
i mean a girl who's been so distracted @ schoolwork trying to medicine. i din wanna be thought of as a joke.
but there came a point i decided to just lay everything in His hands..if im really here for the purpose of becoming a doctor, im sure God wont leave me alone, right (: He'll carry me through and give me the required eloquence to convince my teachers im serious about it. If it isnt meant to be, i always have my 2nd choice to fall back on (:

i found my win win situation and am really glad about it. (:

i suppose, as long as i pursue what this inner voice tells me to... ill feel closer and closer to this purpose.
really hope it's that way (:

anyway, things DID start to become clearer (: and im so thankful for that.

felt that yesterday was a very significant day somehow.
could feel the relation and connection at mich's church. not much initially, but when we went down to pray together with everybody and everyone, wow, i never felt that way before.
i feel that it's alot of affinity for us to come together as 3 to worship the Lord. have this feeling that we're strengthening each other's faith and helping each other out. im sure that's the case between mich and qian (:

and if im not wrong, mich was speaking about how unusually emotional she got yesterday and the same for qian and myself too. and id say i definitely went there for a reason (like how mich put it..). suddenly, things became clearer when the pastor talked about the planetshakers concert. everything just falls into place so beautifully.

i was just so happy ydae nite, i have no idea why.. (:

that was before my kitchen started to flood due to a serious choke in the pipes.
was so tired after trying to pump and pump the hole.

im really contented with all that i have (:
Thank You, Lord. (:

honest reflections. *
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